Tuesday, April 11, 2006

All of You

As I'm surfing the Xangas of "my kids," the song, "All of You is more than enough for all of me," (which happens to be on Angelchickies site)continues to run through my head. Do you know it?

All of You is more than enough for all of me
For every thirst and every need
You satisfy me with Your love
And all I have in You is more than enough

You are my supply
My breath of life
And still more awesome than I know
You are my reward
Worth living for
And still more awesome than I know

All of You is more than enough for all of me
For every thirst and every need
You satisfy me with Your love
And all I have in You is more than enough

You’re my sacrifice
Of greatest price
And still more awesome than I know
You’re my coming King
You are everything
And still more awesome than I know

More than all I want
More than all I need
You are more than enough for me
More than all I know
More than all I can see
You are more than enough for me

I've been through a lot in the past year and few months. If I were to sit down and detail it all out, I might start to cry. So suffice it to say, there's been a lot of loss and a lot of change in my life in the last year. But the one thing that hasn't changed is God.

I don't often write about religion or my own faith in my blog. I don't know why, I'm not ashamed of my faith or my beliefs. I guess that it's all just such a part of me that I figure it comes out without me saying anything specific. Dunno. But tonight, I feel compelled to write about my faith and my relationship with God. Settle in, if you care to read. This might take a while.

Recently, Aaron and I have been in the midst of a rough spot in our marriage. Not only have we lost a baby, but we've had some other issues that finally came to a head just after losing Henry. I still don't know where these issues are going to take us, but we're working together on the issues. One of the reasons why we are still working on things is our relationship with God.

You see, even when I don't want to talk to God, even when I don't want to acknowledge Him, He still pursues me. He invites me into a relationship with Him. And sometimes, relationships go through hills and valleys. I know my relationship with God goes through hills and valleys for sure! But He does not go through hills and valleys. God is. God is constant. God is faithful. God is strong. God is consistent. God is. 1 Corinthians 13 is such a good example of God--- it is known as the Love Chapter in the Bible. I like to substitute God for love in the well known part--- God is patient, God is kind.... etc. He is my example of a love relationship. How he treats me is how I should treat those I love, including my husband. And that's why I continue to try to work on the issues in my marriage and in my life. Because I have to. Because I want to.

Sometimes I'm just filled with awe at the love that God must have for us silly little humans. If you're a parent, think of how much you love your child, how you would die for your child--- and that's how God loves us, only so much more! He sacrificed his ONLY son for us! "Greater love hath no man than this, that he would lay down his life for his brother." God died for us! (If you don't get the whole idea of the trinity, email me! :) ) His love is so amazing.

I wish more people could understand this key thing--- it's not about proving the existence of God. It isn't about proof of creation. It isn't even about whether or not the Bible is complete--- it is SO about Him and a love relationship with Him! Relationships are key! God desires to have a relationship with all of us! Oh wow!

I know I must sound like a religious nut. Well, I am a Christian with a deep and abiding faith. I am not ashamed of the gospel of Christ. I do worry, however, that people will think that I am not credible because of my faith, and decide that I'm totally nuts all around. But I'm not. Well. I might be. Just a little. :)


Murray said...

I know what you mean. You're still nuts, but for other reasons.

Misfit Hausfrau said...

You seem like a strong woman with a deep faith. You will work through it no doubt. BTW--congrats on being FREE this week! WOW!

Always Ashley said...

hmmm...thinking about all you said. you know why i'd rather think the quickly agree. hardtimes

sarah cool said...

Jenette.... I think you are 100% awesome. Your church girls are very lucky!! Keep trucking along. You'll get through this valley. And eventually, you'll be stronger and wiser - as will your marriage. You can do it. I love you!

Chad Burdette said...


been awhile ince I dropped by...benn busy.

Sorry I didn't get to hangout with you last weekend...kind of a busy weekend but it was good to see you

Cmommy said...

We sing this song at our church and I love to practice it in my car--people at the stop sign next to me might think I'm crazy....

You know I am praying for you, for all of your family. my email: singalullaby@yahoo.com

The marriage thing is not uncommon, considering. Been there, still go there at times....God IS in control. The older I get, the more I am realizing that the relationship is He and me, not He & all-the-hats-I-wear. Tuck yourself under His wing this week and let Him sing you a lullaby. :-){} Chrissy