I love my new job. I truly do. I feel as though I was led here and that there are reasons why I have this job. The paperwork is daunting, but nothing I can't handle. The kids are challenging but again, no one that I can't handle. Of my two assistant teachers, one is someone whom I click with. The other, ahhhhh---therein lies the biggest fly in this soup.
Here's the sitch--- she was the interim lead teacher. I came along. She's no longer the lead, but bumped back down to asst. teacher. She resents me for this. (To be fair, she'd resent anyone who stepped into this job) She is making my job harder than it needs to be. From hiding (YES! HIDING!) lesson plans my first week in the classroom, to calling my boss to report anything that she sees as a negative in our classroom---she's done it all---in my first THREE WEEKS! Yesterday, I was so angry at her that I couldn't handle looking at her. I was actually tempted to sign "Bitch" at her numerous times during the day. But I didn't. Because I had something better to combat her with.
I texted a number of my praying friends. I asked them to pray immediately for me and this situation. At lunch, I went to another classroom and spent some time in prayer. I came home and talked it to death with Aaron. I exercised. I went to bed and Aaron prayed for me.
Now I'm up early, spent some time in prayer, and am going to get to my classroom early. Because I'm going to rearrange the whole dang room. I've been taking things slowly for this girl, because she doesn't adjust well to change, she ways. You see where my niceness has gotten me? Having to look over my shoulder every moment of my day instead of interacting and teaching my children. Uh uh. So, I'm going to go ahead and implement the changes that I've wanted to do since day one. And if she doesn't like it, well, she's going to be gone for the next two weeks while she recovers from gall bladder surgery.
I'm not implementing these changes to be vengeful. I figure I have nothing to lose--- it's obvious that nothing I do will make this girl accept me as her lead teacher--so why bother trying to cater to her???
Ok. Off. I love my job. I love my family. I love my life. I even love this asst. teacher. But I sure do detest her mindset.
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And i love YOU! I think you are absolutely doing the right thing. I'm proud that you waited a while to let her get the swing of things - you are a generous woman!! But I think you've chosen the right time to straighten things out. :) :)
I'm glad to know what's going on now. I prayed for you yesterday. And you are definitely doing the right thing!
Oh I hope the change put your stamp on things. You will be in my thoughts and prayers.
Sounds like you're doing the right things. Good for you for letting God have control of the sticky situation. So proud of you, teach!
Kathy I.
I don't think that cursing at her in sign language is the way to go, although it was rather amusing to read!
It sounds like she's just jealous of you because you're such a great teacher!
HOW DID THIS TURN OUT?!?!
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