Tuesday, January 31, 2006

nothing more to say

If anything, the news was a little worse today.

There is NO amniotic fluid. The baby has no kidneys. The lungs will never form. The baby would probably not make it to term if that is the route we choose.

I have placenta previa, meaning that I will never deliver vaginally without risk to my own life. The baby is breech, and cannot shift positions due to the lack of fluid. If there were some fluid, the placenta might move, but there's no real chance to that.

The baby could die at any time due to the lack of fluid. A contraction, a blow to my stomach, any of these could cause death. There is no cushion for the baby to survive any sort of trauma.


Misfit Hausfrau said...

I am so sorry Jenette. The word sorry doesn't even come close.

Chad Burdette said...

wow, really at a loss of words right now

still praying for you


catie said...

Hey Big Sister,

I only understand an inkling of how you feel at this time. If there is anything I can do or you need to talk please, please call me. If you need me to be there I will be in a heart beat! I love you soooo much!


Susan said...

Oh, Jenette, I'm so very sorry. I wish for peace for you and your family.

Always Ashley said...

I know we talked earlier but... I just continue to think about how my heart breaks for you. I remember so clearly how I felt when my fiance' broke up with me and I thought I'd die of a broken heart- and I just can't even imagine how many times worse your heart is breaking. I just hope that you'll be able to make the decision that is right for you, and that no one will question it. We all keep saying how sorry we feel for you, but really, sorry isn't the word. I just feel for you and wish that I could take away some of your pain.

The June Cleaver Diaries said...

I'm Haufrau's friend, Katy. She told me to check out your site, and read what's been going on with you and your baby. I'm so, so very sorry. I don't know what else to say. I talk to Hausfrau almost daily, so I'll have her keep me posted. And I hope to meet you the next time I'm in town.

My husband and I are both in the medical field, so if you need run anything by us, feel free.

The June Cleaver Diaries said...

I just found a support site about Potter Syndrome. If you google Potter Syndrome, its the first link that pops up. Otherwise, type in Potterssyndrome.org. (Is it two S's or one?)

Felicity said...

Hi, came by from June Cleaver's. Miscarriage is something that in the states is pretty much ignored. Miscarrying IS a loss and it does require recognition, validation, etc. I miscarried 3x between my two kids and my SIL also lost two babies in between her pregnancies.
Of course "sorry" is not enough but lots of people don't even know what to say...
For comfort, you might want to Google "Jizo", the Buddhist bodhisattva of compassion. In Japan they recognize the loss of unborn children and the Jizo is sort of like the patron saint of what the Japanese call "water babies."
Feel free to email me if I can give you any form of support at all.
Blessings to you.

Candace said...

I came over from Katy's site.

I have a friend who terminated her pregnancy when they found out the baby had anencephaly (no brain, just a brain stem). She didn't feel like she could carry to term and deliver a child who would die in minutes and survive psychologically. She had suffered multiple miscarriages before that and their son is autistic.

She has since had a healthy baby girl, but that time was the most difficult for anyone I've ever known. None of us EVER questioned their decision to terminate the pregnancy at about 20 weeks, and they were lucky enough to find an incredible hospital who treated the whole thing respectfully and wonderfully. She got a snip of her daughter's hair, and the hospital provided them with the blanket she was wrapped in after birth and before her death.

I am so incredibly sorry that you have to face this. All I can wish for you is a doctor who is compassionate and a hospital staff that will understand what you're going through.

Moxie said...

Jenette, I just clicked over from Friday Playdate. I'm so very very sorry for you and your family. If there's anyting at all the internets can do for you, please let us know.

Kara said...

I clicked here from Friday Playdate. I can only imagine how small you must be feeling in the shadow of something so BIG. All I can say is that my heart breaks for you and your family and your baby. I am thinking of you today from Massachusetts.

mom on a wire said...

God bless you and your family in this time of grief and uncertainty. I'm sending warm thoughts and prayers to you from WA state.

Shan said...

In my prayers as always.

Martiel said...

I need to read the next couple of blogs after this one, I have not kept up with the blogs lately, and only to check up on your blog now is total sadness, and I don't know what to say, I will pray for you. My heart pours out to you, I am crying with sadness, because I know how much you both waited patiently to become pregnant, then to have this not work out I am SO sorry.
Call me with anything you need, to talk or anything, I am here.