Melancholia

Tonight I was hanging out with one of my good friends. We were watching our kids play together, and just chatting about the changes in our lives. This friend has quite the gift of discernment, so out of curiosity, I asked her for her opinion about an area in my life. You know how sometimes when you do that, you really wish that you hadn't? Eh. :) I had a few tears as we talked about the changes that we are both encountering.

So now I'm overwhelmed by a sense of melancholy. There are areas in my life that I need to re-evaluate. I've come to accept the things that I cannot change, but that doesn't mean that I don't want things to be different sometimes. I think that's why this sense of melancholy is with me tonight. I am in that stage where I want things to be different, but know that they aren't going to be, at least not any time soon.

Perhaps it's just summertime. If you've been reading my blog for the three years that I've had it, you know that summertime tends bring insomnia and deep thoughts. :) I sometimes think that those thoughts are related to the lack of sleep. LOL. I get restless in the summer. I get wild inside. :) Oh wait, I'm already wild inside--- I just keep the wild animal under a tight control inside of me.

I want music. That's about it.