Wednesday, June 03, 2009

Oh God, I cry out....

My spirit is so heavy tonight. I've made so many wrong choices in the past year, so many just recently. My spirit is grieved.

I started to make amends with God, started trying to do the RIGHT thing... then got scared and lonely and sidetracked again... Oh God, Oh God, I need you.

It is so hard to do the right thing, it's so hard to know that you're forgiven sometimes. Because even though God forgives you, and have mercy--- other humans forgive you---- it's so hard to forgive yourself.

I want so much to make the choices that are pleasing to my God. I want so much to glorify him. I really really do. Why do I find it so hard to do so??? The spirit is willing, but the flesh, oh God, the flesh is soooo weak.

I'm so heavy tonight.


Shannon Wagers said...

praying 4 ya... we all fall and come up short, that's what makes God's grace so amazing. (:

Anonymous said...

Many of us feel that way. There is no easy way to stay the course. We can't do it without God's help. The way is narrow and few are those that find it. But with God all things are possible. Stick in there.